Cheren's chronicles

Back again ;-)

2011-04-18T03:51:00.001-07:00

When's my last post? Tagal na. Tumblr kasi eh. And busy rin medyo. School. OJT. Graduation. Job hunt. Dami na ring nangyari. Sayang I wasn't able to blog everything.. specially my OJT memories.

Happy new year! Do you have any new year's resolution? =)

2011-01-02T21:30:00.001-08:00

Happy new year! Do you have any new year's resolution? =)

Answer here

Many are called, Only few have responded

2010-06-03T11:51:00.001-07:00

That was one of my realizations after the 6th TPSLC.

Back in the business

2010-06-03T10:28:00.000-07:00

Oh no! been out for so long! haven't updated my blog since May 3.. Lot of things happened during the times that I'm out. And I've got so many memories to share! I hope Mr. Laziness won't strike me.. :)) I'll post individual blogs for each event so that this post won't take too long.

Oryt, so an update with our summer job hunt before, here we are.. still jobless! grr. nobody ever called us. That's so sad. I missed the summer time to have a job and earn some money. But anyway, I enjoyed working at the executive council this summer eh.

Okay, I'll list the events that happened/will happen

1. 6th Tersiary Paulinian Student Leader's Congress (May 16-19)

2. AAHMEI Function (May 22)

3. Meetings..

4. EC Office cleaning day! (June 2)

5. Bulacan swimming trip @ Ate kath's tito's resort (June 3)

6. Freshmen Orientation day (June 5)

First time kulut-kulutan also pala.

Wait for my posts! yay!:))) I'll add pictures as well!^^,

Kaya pa to! Konti na lang! CHAYOOO!!

2010-05-03T03:48:00.000-07:00

Nauubusan nako nang paraan para maka raise nang 2500! tsk. buti nga 2500 na lang eh. dapat nga 5000 buti shinoulder nila sister ung 50%. Ayaw ako payagan ni mama, so kelangan kong gumawa nang sariling paraan.. Sa kasamaang palad, halos naubos ko na pala laman nung bank book ko.. di ko na pedeng bawasan pa, kundi, chugi na aketch! (ay, naging vakush viglaaa?? haha. Aun, kulang nalang ako nang 500. Ang hirap pala hanapin nang 500. nauubusan nako nang paraan. pero kaya ko pa to.. kaya ko pa nga ba??? Loooord! Please help me!!

In love in being in love♥♥~

2010-04-24T09:11:00.000-07:00

I just finished watching why why love in dvd.. and I madly fell in love in being in love. Have you fallen in love?? It's the happiest feeling that I ever feel.. Im not in love with someone else.. I am just in love in being in love:))) ♥♥♥~

Thinking of it makes me smile.. and makes me hope for someone that I could actually fall in love with...

I love watching love stories.. why why love is a very very nice drama:))) I also fall in love with huo da and huo yan's character.. and with jia di as well.. There are times that I ask God.. I ask him when could he finally let me meet the one destined for me.. I believe in destiny. In contrast with Tong Jia Di's principle, I believe in destiny.. I am full of hopes.. though i get disappointed, I still fight and continue hoping.. for I know that someday.. someday I will find what I am looking for. Who knows, he's only around.. I just dont know yet. Whoever he is, I hope I could find him soooon... :)))))

Full of revenge

2010-04-24T08:37:00.000-07:00

Im angry! Im mad! Im weak.. I hate my conscience.. I hate selfish people! I hate greedy people! I hate people who can not understand! I almost hate the world!!! but I cant.. the world has nothing to do with it. I must not bare that much anger. I can't do anything... oh. I can do what I want but I don't know. right now I prefer to be silent yet in every move I make, I want them to feel my anger.. And in this way, i think I am becoming very very evil.. :( I am more evil when I don't yell and speak..

All I want is to teach some people to consider others not just considering their selves.. and understand what others do and consider others situation.. they might misinterpret me.. but I did things on purpose.. and I have no regrets. I will continue doing this until they'll finally learn. I'm not greedy. I just wanted to let them feel how it feels to be treated like their treatment. Am I revengeful in that case? I don't know.. and who cares. I will do what I want to do.

but somehow, what i wanted them to learn is something that I'm not so much capable of as well. though I'm considerate.. It just looks like I'm not 'coz in my mind, I have lots of plans ahead.. like my revenge. Oh shoot. seems like I'm angry to death. well, I only need to express it so I can breathe.

It's been a while

2010-03-24T06:45:00.000-07:00

My last post is so emo. hehe. Well, that's how my emotions go.. unpredictable. I get frustrated at times. but now, I'm okay. everything are all settled and clear. Me and my friends had an open forum.. and I guess, Me being an over and exage sensitive is the problem. But I can't help it. I don't actually know what to do after the conversation with them. It would not be easy for me to fight with what I really feel. I mean, How can I not feel bad if I am really a sensitive person? oh well, thinking of those stuffs was so frustrating. now, I'm going with the flow and living my life without considering other's feelings. I mean, I'm more ME. I'm more REAL. well, this is easier.. and better.

Anyway, This march, many things happened. I'm the new TREASURER of the Executive Council.. and oh, that's a big responsibility.. I guess, God put me in that position for me to redeem myself from the faults I made before. But I'm not really ready for this. I mean.. Executive Council handles the entire college.. meaning to say.. I must lead them to the right path. I must be their role model.. I must be responsible [and I think I am.] and I must be.. more than what I am now. Last monday we had a meeting with the officers though only four of us attended. Each of them has their suggestions and comments.. and sadly, I can't come up with one. I know it's impossible but.. it was maybe because I really can't speak in meetings like that coz you know, they will listen to you and all eyes on you and all.. and I know for a fact that I really can't speak well.. and most of the time, mali-mali ako. So to avoid mistakes, I prefer not to speak.. and besides, I don't have anything to say.. :))

Being part of the executive council, daphne and I have to attend the graduation and be an usherette. Oh. it was so tiring!! before the ceremony starts, We said "good afternoon" a thousand times to different parents and guardians at the gym.. and we stand [without sitting] for a couple of hours with an inch-heeled shoes. Thank God there's a dinner after the graduation. oww.

That's it for now. I can't remember any. Now I'm waiting for a call from three companies. Tokyo-Tokyo, Convergys, and Gloria Jeans.. Daphne and I applied in that three companies. I hope I could get a good job this summer. Oh. I'm so exhausted.

Should I walk away?

2010-03-07T14:30:00.000-08:00

things are really changing. In this crazy world, nothing is constant.. except changes. Friends come and go. there are billion people in the world.. and finding a real friend isn't easy. For some, they're friendly in nature so they easily found friends. well, im not one of those.

I hate my friends. I cry because of them. I tend to be this emotional every time I think of them nowadays. Tell me it's unfair to hate them and not hate the people who do the same, I don't care. In fact, they are incomparable. They WERE my CLOSE friends, and the rest are not.. Is it wrong for me to expect something good from them? is it only me who thinks this way? Im paranoid. I hate them so much.. I hate them when they're laughing at my simple mistakes.. I hate them when they're commenting on how I look.. I hate them when they're trying to make me look funny when there's plenty of people.. I hate them when they say that it's only me who thinks this way.. I hate them when in everything I do, they criticize me.. I hate them when they're trying to spoil my happiness with my other friends.. I hate them when they are nice to me when they needed me.. I hate them when they're not being a good friend to me.. I HATE THEM a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!

I am thinking to go away from them.. I am thinking if I should end our friendship. we're friends for almost 2 years and it's not easy to decide.

You're not worthy to be my friend

2010-03-06T06:29:00.000-08:00

I thought we will last forever laughing at each other and sharing memories together. But what happened to us? Like a tree that is about to die, leaves are slowly falling and drying signalling that it's life is almost over. It was like a nightmare. I want to believe that it is. But it isn't. I'm not good in forecasting. I never thought we will end up like this. on the other hand, I'd rather end this up than to continue pretending that everything's fine though it was obvious that it's not.

Like any other people who cares about their dignity, I'd also like to be respected. Everybody has their right to get the respect they deserve. You may say that some things were done as a joke, but even the dumbest person on earth will know if it is an insult or not? Like for example, in a crowd, she will laugh at my shoes telling how funny it looks like. Let me quote that "I'm an Executive Council candidate" and I have an image to build. How on earth will people follow and respect me if they will witness that my friend will laugh at me noticing every single thing they could notice in me. She always have something to say about my outfit, my hair, my bag, my face, my attitude, the way I speak.. Everything! What the hell is she trying to tell me? to change the entire ME???? If she don't like me, don't pretend that she's my friend!! Now I realized that she's not worthy to be my friend. One of the worst thing she did is during our lab class. I bought KIKIAM and shared this to them and-- ... err. Anger aroseeeeeeeee!! I quit bloggingggggg!!! Please, It really hurts......:'(( Now Im starting to cry... :'((( I HATE YOUUUUU!

Love love BASHA ~♥~

2010-03-01T05:39:00.000-08:00

I want Everyone to meet my new love, Basha :))

Last thursday, february 25, my friend korea gave me basha :) basha was their dog but they give basha and her other siblings away. She is 1 month and a day old :) Her birth date is on February 28 2009 :)) She was so Cute and cuddly! She loves to sleep like a looooot! :)) Every morning, when I woke up, I always call her and she will run to me like she was so excited to see me :) but Every morning, the floor is full of her pees and sometimes, poops.. it is so disgusting, really. but I have to take responsibility of it.. :)) Her daily routine was to eat, then poop.. then pee plenty of times then play a little, then sleep.. then wake up again, the play, eat, poop, pee, play sleep.. How exciting her life was huh! :| but i think, she's enjoying her stay here.. though I don't fed her a lot.. only just enough because She might poop a lot if she's so full.. :) I am looking forward to see her growing and playing with me :))

Here are some of her pictures :))

a loving pet owner,

cheren ♥

Uncomfortable

2010-02-13T03:19:00.000-08:00

we're on the same place. watching the same thing. few steps away from each other.. yet why does it seems like we're poles apart and do not know each other? Plenty of times that we crossed each other's eyes, yet why is there no single smile at all? Remember before when we're still comfortable with each other? You're sweet and nice. You always approach me and throw a joke. but now, we hardly utter a word to each other. we're uncomfortable with each other.. the night after that, I dreamed of you.. on your own sweet way, you tell me how you'd like to be comfortable with me again and you don't like me to ignore you and you're sorry for ignoring me too. They say thatwhen you dreamed of a person, he/she is thinking of you. I hope that's right. i hope you're thinking of me too. I kinda knew it.. :)

Leadership training

2010-02-13T03:08:00.000-08:00

Nothing fun happened. Actually, I am nervous right now. I already submitted an application form for executive council.. and on Monday, we're going to have a leadership training with Ms Verona, dean of student affairs. Gosh, I hope there's no speaking thingy to happen. I'm not confident to speak in front of many people because I have 'S' defect and because plenty of eyes are focusing on me. gosh. now I'm thinking if it's a good decision to submit an application form. Well at least, I will not regret someday that i missed an opportunity.

almost melting,

cheren♥

Executive Council, Gloria Jean's and thesis proposal defense [My February :))]

2010-02-09T07:23:00.000-08:00

Dear Blog,

Alright. I owe you lots of stories to tell. It's been weeks since I last posted something here. I've been busy for thesis and too lazy to think of something to post here. Anyway, January ended just right. [actually, I can't remember anything on how my January ends. Well, that would be fine because it only means that there's nothing so bad happened to me :))]

The Executive Council committee is now open for those who wanted to run for EC. Miss cath gave us an application.. and until now, I'm still bothered if i would file it or not. I don't actually believe in myself. Maybe I don't also have a leadership capability.. I just like to have new experiences and be active at school. hmm. Ive been asking for signs from God yet I dont think his signs are that obvious for me to notice. hmm. Im still undecided.

I am currently reading a book I borrowed from the library. I accidentally saw it and liked it as well that's why I signed at the borrower's card. It's "Rosie Dunne" by Cecelia Ahern. This is a romance novel :)) haven't finished it yet neither reached the middle part. I found it interesting though :))

Last Friday and Saturday, We have a back to back seminar at Gloria Jeans.

It was interesting. I learned about the history of coffee, chocolates and teas. But as usual, I fell asleep in the middle of the seminar ^_^. Anyway, There are lots of chillers and ensaymada from GJ for our breaks and uwian :)) On saturday, We experienced making our own frappe/chillers. [at GJ, they call frappe as chillers] It was so fun and exciting. We also made our own espresso. Well, I think I made a good shot espresso :)) At the end of our seminar, we had a free tumbler! so so so amazing! :D I totally love freebies! ^_^

Research proposal Defense is finally over. Last monday, feb 8, we had our thesis proposal defense. We've got 10 out of 12 balls. meaning to say, 10 vites for valid, 2 votes for invalid.. well, Honestly, I am so disappointed. grr. Dont like to talk much about it.

hmm. So that's for my february :)) Im looking forward to watch john lloyd's movie, I miss you like crazy! I'm so deadly in love with JL!! specially if he's paired with Bea. :) I love their love team ;))

So, I'll update you once there's something fun, amazing and even awful things happened to me. I hope i will not be so lazy to post it here :))

'til my next post,

Cheren ♥

yoh-gurt froz, picnics, wines.. perfect!

2010-01-23T15:51:00.000-08:00

Alright. now I've already got a time to blog. hm. I have been busy for my thesis this past few days. okay. I have lots to blog about. Anne and I were okay. daphne and I spent 13hrs at yoh-gurt froz and sleepover at their house. I am really enjoying bringing baon and sharing it with chi and cho :). For the first time, i feel like a little bit drunk ^_^. that's quite a lot :) then I should start making kwento na :)

Anne and I were finally.. okay. 'Okay' as in were getting comfortable with each other. Now it seems that nothing wrong happened. That could have two meanings. first, because we're close again like the usual. and second, she doesn't seem to grow. she's still the same. I don't know if my observations are bias that I'm only seeing the things I wanted to see. But anyway, I don't need to require her to change. the change must come from me. I must be responsible for the things that happens in my life. I will try not to make the same mistakes again. Because that's what grown-ups do. Kids grow because they learn from their mistakes. :)

Due to our thesis, Daphne and I have to tally the number of customers at yoh-gurt froz. so from the time it opens (11am) to the the it closes (12am), we have to be there to count the number of customers they had. Well, that's a new experience! imagine, thirteen ours of staying there and observing people. I don't enjoy much. maybe if I'm with chi or choed i will enjoy the stay there more.

this week, chi, cho and I are being so matipid that's why we bring baon to share :)) that's so exciting and fun and cool! sometimes, it seems like we're having a picnic. I always wanted to have a picnic with my friends and sharing foods that we have brought for each other. I'm happy that I experienced it with chrischoed and chi. there's one time that I went to school so late because I've been busy preparing the pancit canton I gonna share with them. cho brought sandiwiches, chi brought oreo (the gold one. Our favorite!), chocolates, cookies. I bring pancit canton and sandwiches :) I really love this like a lot!!

Every friday, we have a bar lab. last friday, we tasted 4 kinds of dessert wines and 5 kinds of sparkling wines. At the end of the class, I felt that my pulse rate are getting faster. I get quite noisy. I felt very happy. then later I felt depressed. so awkward. pero I wanted that feeling. totoo nga sinasabi nila. mas madaling malalabas emotions mo pag.. lasing ka. pero di naman ako lasing no :) pero honestly, I wanted to be drunk. I wanted to give-out all this awkward feelings I have. maybe by that I'll feel relieved. hayy. I'm so problematic no? haha.

alright. that's for now so far. I'll update this when I've got kwentos to share pa. :) smilesss!

St. Paul's Alumni Home Coming

2010-01-10T17:50:00.000-08:00

Waaahh!! another great experience for 2010! I met people I never expect to meet at the vacinity of st. paul:))

Last January 9, St. Paul held their annual alumni homecoming. Daphne and I was one of the usherettes. We are placed at the registrar table. Our work is to check their names on the guest lists, give their table numbers, give the complementary hand and back massage coupon, ask for a credit card for the raffle and give name tags. Well, I actually enjoy my work even though nabubulol na ko kaka english and kakaulit ng mga sinasabi ko. But there are some people that complains about the registration. medyo magulo kasi and not so organized. I think the organizers are not organized as well. we simply follow instructions. Well, nakakatense pag nag cocomplain sila, but honestly, that was fine with me 'coz at least I will learn how to handle complaints. No one complains naman about my work eh :))

Alright, let me go to the most interesting part. One old lady went in front of our table. At first, Daphne took the registration for her.

Old Lady: Cristina.

[she mentioned her name so that daphne could check it on the guest list.]

Daphne: Ma'am your maiden name please.

[with a smile of course]

Old Lady: Pantoja

[when I heard that, I remember the book "catch a falling star" that I've read that was written by ms Cristina Pantoja Hidalgo. So I immediately find her name on my guest list. On my surprise, I saw her name there. batch '60, Pantoja-Hidalgo, Cristina.]

Me: Ms. Cristina Pantoja-Hidalgo?

[sarcastic way]

Old Lady: Yes.

**then I took her registration. I gave her table number, her hand and back massage coupon, her name tag [her nick name was "JING" :))] and asked for her calling card [she's now working at the University of the Philippines].

I was so surprised. I was about to tell her that I've read her book but.. I don't know. I'm speechless. gosh.

Here's a picture of her and her book that I've read.

She's thiner when I saw her. She doesn't look nice and friendly like on the picture above. She looks like masungit. But I think it's because of the messed-up registration.

When you read a book kasi, somehow, you're building a relationship with the author of the book and the characters on it. And the characters on that book was she herself. Kaya pala nakakarelate ako sa mga nakasulat dun.. like they also held their retreat at antipolo, there are also sisters on her school.. grabehh. di ko maexpress eh. nakakatuwa naman. parang panaginip lang.

I made a research about her. She's a high school valedictorian pala at St. Paul during her batch. And magkasunod ung birthday namin. Mine was on the 20th of August, Hers was on the 21st. She had a lot of writings beside catch a falling star.

Anyway, I also saw few artists there like:

Ms. Arlene Muhlach

she looks so bubbly and jolly like what we saw on tv. She isn't so fat naman pala.

Ms. Yayo Aguila

Nakasabay namin sya sa elevator:)) but she looks like mataray. idk. muka lang naman. :)

Vice Mayor Herbert Bautista

The Captain Barbell! :)) He's small like on TV..

And we also met the chairman of gawad kalinga.

I went home like around 7 in the evening. Tiring but memorable :)) I had fun and I enjoy the experience:))

Secretary for a while :)

2010-01-07T11:28:00.000-08:00

This day.. rather yesterday [since it's 3am in the morning already] was the first day of school for 2010, yay! oh well, it's a quiet good day. I saw somebody who completes my day just before I enter the school. haha. the funny thing is, I pretended that I did not see him though I know that he's about to say "hi". he-he.

Wait, I've got a new experience today! ha-ha. Daphne and I, for the first time, got to use ate laurice's desk and computer at the Student Affairs Office :)) haha. Ms. Cath instructed us to use the computer there to find quotes regarding charity to be posted on the bulletins at the catwalk. When Ms. Cath had to do some agendas outside, and daphne and chuck had to talk to chef Christine, I was left alone there. hahaha. now, the fun part is that when some people opens the door at SAOffice, I was like a secretary that assits their needs! haha. isn't fun?? :))

Uhm, the flip side of my day is when we haven't talked to Sir Francis Onate of Amazing Cones regarding our thesis. okaaayy. now we give-up at amazing cones. We'll try our luck at California berry. I hope this time, We could have their approval already. Another thing is, I did not enjoy my lunch. first because I have tonsilitis [if that's what you call it]] and a quite bland taste, second is because the dimsum soup I ordered at Dn'D [dimsum and dumpling] was not satisfying. I think the molo wrapper is still uncooked and the chicken siomai has 90% extenders.

Now it's past 3am. I'm still doing my review of related literature for our thesis. gosh. I could not post pictures right now. I'm still busy (?) with my thesis. Maybe next time.. :))

Cheren goes crazy! :)))

2010-01-05T03:43:00.000-08:00

Christmas vacation is almost OVEEEER~~.
two days from now, I have to be back to school. But tomorrow, I'll meet up with daphne to talk about our thesis. gosh!! my screws are loosening because of that thesis! kaasar!

Anyway, Before the vacation ends, I just discovered some fun features of our a4tech webcam. ha-ha-ha. I really had FUN! Here's a video I made out of nothingness! haha. Don't play if you don't want to waste time! hahaha. :))) alright. here you go! :)))

Here's the link on youtube.

I told you..! don't play if you don't want to waste time:D haha. anyway. this is my first video of the year :))

Starting the year badly

2010-01-04T18:54:00.000-08:00

After the New Year’s Eve celebration, my tongue started to ache like the feeling when I eat spicy noodles or when my tongue gets scalded by a hot choco. This is not normal. I did not drink any hot beverages nor eat any hot and spicy foods before it happened. I think there’s something wrong with my tongue.

First I thought it was like tonsillitis. But the next day, my tongue started to ache like namamanhid or what. I don’t know the exact term to describe.

Now I could not even eat any food. I think my taste buds are all DEAD. Grr. I could not taste or even chew foods. Milk is the only beverage that I could drink na hindi sumasakit ang dila at lalamunan ko. All I can do is to savor the aroma of the food and stare at it like a poor little girl.

RECAP my 2009 ;))

2010-01-02T19:57:00.000-08:00

MY 2009 LIFE :D

JANUARY
//BUFFET PARTY. Meal management FINALS :D.
♦Party coordinator group :D had so much fun talaga :D ever since, gusto kong maexperience maging party coordinator :D first time un :D hehe. wala lng :P
//Daphne's 18th Birthday.
♦Watched movie at globe platinum and had dinner at burgoo.
FEBRUARY
//Bataan Immersion.
♦Experienced living with almost empty-handed people for 3 days and 2 nights at bataan.
♦Had my first boat ride [with cest la vie]. We even saw swordfish-like sea creature :D
♦Went at halushos cave. [i don't know if I got the spelling right :]]
//Kawang Gawa Day :]] haha
♦We brought some kiddos at sta. lucia and we let them play at.. uhm.. tom's world ata un. basta.
[[supposedly, mga street children dapat tlga ang balak naming dalhin.. kaso wala kmeng nadampot eh :D]]
//Jihan's Birthday
♦Watched the opening of intramurals at SFAC :D
♦met my old classmates. batchmates and schoolmates.
MARCH
//Korea's 18th Birthday
♦had so much fun at tom's world at robinson's galleria :D
♦had dinner at shabu-shabu.
♦went home late :D
//HRM officer's election :D
♦Elected as a club manager :p
[[I am not so serious sa pagiging officer ko nung una.. parang wala-wala lang. parang.. ahh, okay. haha.]]
♦Met new officers/people/friends to work with ^_^ [Chuck, Anna, Reed, Bea, Chiara, Ej, Jerz, Abbie, Kisses]
APRIL
//Summer Classes!!
♦Brain-bleeding PHILO!
♦730 class EVERYDAY!
♦Civilian attire :P
//Baguio, Manila Ocean Park and Puerto Galera getaway! :D
♦Superrr Saya! Bonding with my little pamangkinss :D
♦Superrr UMITIM! eiw! haha.
//Annes 18'th Birthday
♦I missed out.
//Last bonding with KF
♦alice, apple, chemae
♦parang despedida ni alice :D hehe.
♦super miss ko na ulit kayong makasama. haha.
MAY
//First work as an officer :D
♦3-day seminar :D
[petiks lang ako :D powerpoint powerpoint lang :D wala pang maxadong work :D bibo pa mga officers! ayiiee :D]]
//End of summer classes! yay!
//RELAXATION AND BOREDOM...
JUNE
//My lola died :'[
♦it was unexpected.
♦stayed at Pangasinan for more than a week.
♦Missed some days of school.
♦Missed some meetings of the org.
JULY
//Nutrition Month :D
♦Busy-busihan mode :D
♦Poster making contest with daph and cho. Cramming :D Last minute planning.
♦Foodie campus tour :P
//Peta play :P
//meeting na with SPAA
//Little by little, I'm starting my work for sportsfest. :P
[[aga. july palang! :P]]
♦looking for sponsors, try-outs, venues, players, team captains.. NAKAKALITO!
♦Met new people from the school :D [students, faculties, professors :D]
AUGUST
//Fruit and Vegetable Carving Competition! :D
♦Sunday trainings with anne and kim [once :)]
♦Met a very good trainer. Sir Joey :D
♦Competition held at eastwood :D
♦won SILVER medal ^_^ [superrr unexpectedly!] with 1000 worth of GC, Harvey fresh products, Magazine, and Non-stick pan :D
//My 18th birthday :D
♦went at rustans with chi and cho.
♦briefing at QC Hall for the competition
♦Submission of requirements for sports fest.. NGARAG na!
♦SUUPPEEEERRRR BUUUSSSSYYY!! SUPER PAGOD!
♦Dine at dencios with cest la vie.. wala nang buhay! haha.
//BUSY MODE!!
♦Club Manager in action!
♦Org. shirt designs, supplier, jacket, player for every events, trainings, sponsors... MIDTERMSSS!
♦Went home late to watch anne and korea's training.. rode at the lrt katipunan.. ALONE! kakatakot!
♦I almost memorize the entire population of HRM except the freshies.
♦start ng eliminations! :D
♦NAKAKALOKA!
SEPTEMBER
//Foodie Food Showdown!
♦My first time to stay overnight at my friend's place.. :D
♦Walang tulugan!
♦Helped daphne and chi to prepare their piece :D
♦Went at A venue at around 4 am.. pero di na rin kme nakapasok. badtrip kasi.
//SPORTSFEST MONTH!!!
♦Ngaragan na :D haha. game na to!!
♦go redddd!! go hrm!! shout shout shout! cheer cheer cheer! all-out support!
♦foods and drinks ng players, design at props ng bleachers, pep [umabot pa sa pagcoconfiscate nung mga ids :D peace! sorry^_^], cheers and cheerdancers na nagkakaproblema na rin, distribution ng shirts and jacket na nagkaka problema din! puro problemaaa. grabeeeehhhh. ang sakit sa ulo! haha.
♦grocery.. luto.. mcdo.. Bm.. lakad.. takbo. haayy. kapagod talaga :D
♦Pero at least, nagwagi pa rin kame kahit papaano :D mga magigiting na players :D horayy!
♦Ung obstacle race pala.. muntik ko ng makalimutan :D hehe. syempre, talo kme. haha. ako raw nagpatalo.. sorry! feeling ko tlga ang galing galing ko eh. haha. ambagal pala! haha. kakahiya!
//Sunog sa st paul :D
♦Cheerdance competition was stopped dahil sa sunog sa may HS building.
♦ lahat ng tao sa gym pinalabas.. eh kasalukuyang umuulan kasi nga me bagyong ondoy.
//Bagyong Ondoy!!
♦Stranded at daphne's place. 2nd overnight stay at my friend's place. movie marathon sana kaso nag brown-out.
♦walked under the rain.. ayy.. STORM pala.. with flood pa! :D from 3rd street to 13th st nilakad namen :D
♦the next day, went at anne's place with korea.. [haha. dinadamayan ko lang si korea. baha pa kasi sa kanila.]
♦naglakad ng sobrang haba papuntang jolibee.. pero out of stock na.. pati ung ibang mga stores din.
♦sobrang baha at calamity ang nangyari sa pilipinas. grabeeehhhh.
♦nakita ko ung baha sa marikina and santolan. puro putik na. grabe talaga. ang dungis ng lugar.
OCTOBER
//Bagyong Pepeng
♦Super lakas rin. sa northern luzon naman ung tinamaan. grabeeeehh rin ung pinsala na dinulot nito.
♦No classes for couple of days.. haha :D
//Awarding!! :D
♦ayun nga, kahit naputol ung competition, marami rin namang nahakot na medals and trophies ang HRM :D
//Ms. Admana left the school :'(
//Chef Christine became the new PD :)
//Enrollment day!!
♦PILA. PILA. PILA. PILA.. napaka rameng pila!
//Registration for 2010 election
♦Went at Apple's house para magpasama pumunta sa city hall.
♦super haba rin ng pila and sobrang dami ng tao! sobrang init pa. grabeeehh.
//World Vision and Red Cross Volunteer
♦ first time kong nag volunteer sa mga ganito ganito. ang sarap pala ng feeling.
♦Spent some effort and money :D
♦first time kong nakasakay sa truck na ganun kalaki. haha.
NOVEMBER
//second sem!
♦became quite close with chi and cho.
♦THESIS timeeee!!!
♦Retreat :D
♦Super kaba with super dameng problema! haha.
//THESIS
♦ pabalik balik sa amazing cones for thesis.
♦ nakakamatay ng brain cells.
♦ nakaka ubos ng oras! haha. badtrip!
DECEMBER!!
//Wine tasting :DD
♦bar mngmnt lab :D
♦wala lng :D
//market market!
♦brought chi and cho at market market..
♦stroll stroll lng sa mga stalls at sa serendra.
♦biglaan lng :D haha
♦had fun! :DDD
//WHAPPU REUNION♥
♦JIHAN, SARAH, JASMIN :DDD
♦Its jasmin's birthday! :D
♦ super saya :D tawanan plus kwentuhan :D plus kainan! hahaha.
♦sobrang namiss ko sila :D sobrang tagal na kc nung huli kmeng ngkita eh. haha :D
//Went at Cavite :D
♦to visit my cousin and to attend baptismal celebration :P
♦played at the playground :D haha. sobrang tagal na nung huli akong mag laro sa play ground :D haha.
//CHRISTMAS TIME!
♦cooked food for the family :D
♦bought some gifts :D
//PROCESSION OF MANAOG
♦went at pangasinan. yearly namen to gingawa. pero this time, wala na lola ko.
♦played with my little pamangkinssss :D hahaha.
//New year's eve :D
♦sa bahay lang. nakakatakot kasi mga paputok sa labas namin. as in!
♦di man lang ako nakakita ng fireworks. sayang!
♦kain. kain. kain! busog! busog! busog!

GRABEH NAMAN TONG 2009 KO :D BUTI NAKASURVIVE AKO!

A NEW BEGINNING!

2010-01-02T19:33:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
HAPPY 2010!!!

**photo from flickr.com

A brand new year for everyone!
Brand new year means brand new CHANCESSS!!
New chances to make things RIGHT this time :))
Let's kick off a year with lotsa lotsa FUN!

I'm looking forward for a more EXCITING year!
more memorable memories. more adventures. more fun.
more new intimate friends. more new knowledge.
I want MORE for 2010!!

May this year be filled with joy and laughter :))
Wishing all the best for 2010!!

REPOST.. :D

2009-12-12T02:02:00.000-08:00

This is a blog repost from my tumblr account. I just realized that it's not so good to blog at tumblr..

2009.08.07

See, like what I’ve said before, EVERYTHING WILL FALL INTO PLACE. From being an uncertain little girl who almost give up the challenge, to being an enduring grown-up lady who works well to get appreciation.. YES. to be appreciated is the top reason why I work well. I want someone to be proud of me or be satisfied with my work. I am not a good person. I mean, I am absent-minded most of the time, I am not decisive enough, I am fearful, I am not perfect and I have lots of flaws. But the thing is, I am trying to, somehow, make an effort to earn good compliments.

I don’t need to be what the other people wants me to be. I have my own mind, I will be what I wanted to be. I’m sorry but I don’t know how to make “takot” the people I’m handling. They said I must do that in order for them to follow me. I know I am not good in handling people. some follows me, some are not. But whatever may happen, I’m trying to be nice to all of them since I believe that a pure heart and a peaceful mind makes better performance.

Expect that dilemmas may occur.. but like what I have said earlier, everything will fall into place. Don’t loose hope because the best things will come as a surprise. Expect the unexpected as what they say.

Now I’m happy. I’m happy because I ignore what my friends said and stood up with what I think is right. I don’t need to frightened them to gain respect. I WANTED TO BE RESPECTED AS WHO I AM. The plus side is that I’m gaining new friends. And I’m pretty sure they’d like me as who I am not as what I pretended to be. Soft and gentle hands are much better than those made of metals.

Anong magic meron ka ba't parati mo kong napapangiti?

2009-12-09T07:30:00.000-08:00

Akala ko wala na. Akala ko naka get-over nako. Kasi hindi na kita naiisip eh. Kasi hindi na kita nakikita.

Pero bakit isang tawag mo lang sa pangalan ko napapangiti na ako? ung ngiting 10-15 seconds bago matangal. Ung ngiting kahit pigilan mo, lumalabas at lumalabas pa rin. tawag pa lang un sa pangalan ko ha. Pano pa nung kinausap mo ko? parang ang sarap ihinto nung oras eh. Ung gusto mong tumagal rin ang moment na un. Pero syempre, ayun, na speechless lang ako.

Ba't ka ba kasi ganyan? ang bait bait mo maxado. ang hirap mong kamuhian. ang hirap mong hindi isipin. ang hirap mong isnobin. ang hirap mong kalimutan...

Bakit ganyan ka thesis?

2009-12-09T07:16:00.000-08:00

Shemay. bat ba kelangan pa naming maghanap ng problema para lang sa thesis na yan? kung iisipin, kung problema lang ang hahanapin, muka syang madali.. pero hindi lang un eh. Syempre malamang sa thesis kelangan naten ng topic diba? hayy. lechugas na topic yan. topic lang yan pero halos na tuyot ang utak namen kakaisip. isip dito isip dyan. lahat ng paraan para makaisip ng topic ginawa na namen. naglakad lakad, nagtanong tanong.. only to end up na mangagaling sa prof namen ung topic :D yey. at least bawas problema na un diba? :D

Chaka me isa pa kong problema. [tss. maniwala kang isa lang yan. problemado nga ko parati diba?] Ang bilis magtrabaho nung thesis partner ko.. hindi naman sa slow ako no. pero.. ang hirap sabayan. basta. haha. pero okay naman. un nga lang, hindi ko na alam kung ano pa ang maidadagdag ko minsan dahil mukang halos lahat nasabi na nya. haha. anyway, okay naman sya kapartner.. un nga lang, me mga mangilan-ngilang bagay kaming di napagkakasunduan. pero natural na un samen. hayy. o diba. "hayy" nanaman. puro nalang ba buntong hininga? haha.

basta sana, ang hiling ko e maka 12 balls kame. kahit papaano, nagugustuhan ko rin namang magbasa ng mga articles kasi mukang interesting ung iba eh. edi aun, me natututunan pa ako diba. tapos kahit papaano, nagagamit ko ung oras ko. i mean hindi ito nasasayang kakapanood lng ng tv o kaka babad lang sa facebook. haha :D

AH! alam ko na. kokompletuhin ko ang simbang gabi tapos hihiling ako. diba sabi nila pag nakumpleto mo raw ang simbang gabi, matutupad ang kahilingan mo? tama. tama. haha. me pag-asa pa kame! :P simbang gabi, here I come! haha.

My new pledge: Thou shall not buy unecessary things.

2009-11-06T18:59:00.000-08:00

This past few months, I always have financial problems. And the root of those problems are my unecessary expenses. hm. kadalasan naman ng mga binibili ko e pagkain. Pero sobra na ee. I mean, I eat a lot. I spend a lot. nauubos na pera ko kakagastos sa walang katuturan na bagay. now, my conscience is hunting me.
To cut this foolishness, I will make a pledge that I will not spent any single cent for unnecessary things. Meaning, if i dont really need that thing, I must not buy it. I must neither think twice. I have to save my money. Christmas is coming and I must prepare a gift for my friends and family.
Sana magawa ko tong pledge na to. kung hindi, nako.. wala nakong future! haha.

Galit ako.

2009-11-06T18:47:00.000-08:00

Badtrip! inis na inis na talaga ako sa buhay ko! ang boring. parang walang saysay. baka bukas, sa kangkungan nalang ako pupulutin. nakakainis pa itong st paul. Oo, ung ST PAUL. kasi yan ung dahilan ng init ng ulo ko ngaun! akalain mo, pumasok ako sa school para sa nag iisang class ko na 730-1030.. tas pagdating ko dun, wala palang prof!! badtrip!! sayang effort! sayang pamasahe!! sayang uniform!!! sayang ung tulog ko!!!! as usual, nag blog lang nanaman ako dahil galit at inis ako!! hay. nakakaasar naman kasi talaga eh. buti sana kung malapit lng ung school samen. tas ang panget panget pa ng sched namen!! badtrip! hay. naiinis talaga ako!!!!!!

Pwedeng mag emote?

2009-09-13T15:29:00.000-07:00

BUSY. BUSY. BUSY. That’s the main root of everything that happened. I could not even make time for everything. Marame akong napabayaan :(. Mga bagay na mahirap ibalik. Mga bagay na kahit di ko amining nababagabag ako, di ko maiwasang mabahala. Ganun na lang ba masasayang ang lahat? hmm. well, I know It will not be like a mess as easy as that.
Pero nakaka amaze isipin.. that the black cats that we thought had that very unusual attitude are becoming their friends.. yess. My friends and the black cats are FRIENDS already. I don’t know. The possibility of my friends liking them more than me is very strong.. And that makes me bothered. I might loose my friends isn’t it? so what will I do now? I DONT KNOW.
Kanina sa school, Im with them.. and the black cats are there also. But I was left at my row alone.. it’s as if I have NO friends. too sad to think that they chose to be with that black cats side than to sit with me. I don’t know but.. do they still like me? Im starting to NOT like them. I know one of them has a story to tell. of course I want to know because I THOUGHT I’m one of her friend.. but she keeps on saying that she is not obliged to tell everything to me.. so why would she? She’s making a wrong and inappropriate logic but I didn’t say a word against that.. ‘coz it might worsen the scenario. and it might lead to something bad.. the other one naman is becoming so immature. She’s been mad at me because that very immature reason. I dont know pero naiinis ako pag naiisip ko. minsan iniisip ko tuloy, sadya bang gumgwa nlng sila ng rason para mabuwag na nga kme ng tuluyan? ang saklap ano?

I’m becoming paranoid. shocks! I must stop doing this.

-end-

Im back.

2009-09-13T15:23:00.000-07:00

My blogspot just got messed up and I hate seeing this like.. THIS!? err. I don't know now how to make this look pleasing, and appealing, and nice.. and all! grr.

That is why I haven't blogged here for quite some time. I have made my tumbler account where I posted my new blog entries. well, I'll re-post them here anyway. well, I miss blogging! I have a lot to say, but I don't know where to start neither what words to use.. :))

Laugh trip day

2009-07-14T05:53:00.000-07:00

hmm. today was a LAUGHTRIP DAY. i dont know. but did it ever happened to you na bigla ka nalang tatawa o matatawa. as in, out of the blue, tatawa ka bigla.. hmm. maybe because of the past memories.. and ung mga kakornihan na nangyayari sa paligid. some corny jokes were realy FUNNY tlga. hahaha.

kanina, akala nmen ng friend ko, ung crush nmen ung pumsok sa cr ng boys. so inantay nmen xang lumabas ng cr. haha. unfortunately, hindi pla xa ub. haha. the nakakatawa part is, nkita ko tong lalaking to na nagsasara ng zipper nya. hahaha! oi. di ko sinasadya un ha. haha. chaka wala akong intensyon no. haha. the MAS nakakatawa part is, nung kinukwento ko sa friend ko, nasa likod pala ung lalakeng un! hahaha.

Ok, I'm busy na for this heckish sports festival. congratulations Ms. Chrischoed Olimberio for being the newly elected asst. club manager. now, at least me makakatulong nko sa worksssss ko!:) She's a good leader I think.. hm. better than me pa nga ata. hehe. Wish us luck on the coming days. we'll be very busy na. huhu.

does it look good na ba?

2009-07-12T20:20:00.000-07:00

wow. ok. so as you see, my blog page is different na. I changed the background, fonts, colors and everything:) it is not as beautiful as others blog pages, but at least.. I made effort for this! haha. although I found a site where I can choose my layout, I still prefer making my own. haha. I feel proud of my self:) ang babaw!
heck! this damn keyboard makes me nave too much typo errors! err. the letters were faded na kc ee. hmm.

I'll make an EFFORT :)

2009-07-12T16:05:00.000-07:00

Im browsing blogs from blogspot.com. haha. I find it out that my blogs were so boring pala! haha. like the background was so dull, and the way my blogs were written was so boring, the colors, the inputs, haha.. EVERYTHING!:)

ok, so before I'll so my schoolworks, I'll make ayos my blog muna. haha. just to be pleasing when somebody viewed this. haha. so that they'll take time to read. hahaha!

STRESSFUL WEEK

2009-07-11T09:57:00.000-07:00

This week was a BOOM!!
I was so stressed because I'm doing jobs that I should not do pala. I wasn't oriented kasi with my JOB DESCRIPTION as HRM's club manager. I look for coaches, sponsors, venue, try-out dates, and players for sportsfest.. just to find out that i should look for the sponsors lng pla! .. and the others are the jobs of their team captain pala. heck!

I just found it out yesterday. it was quite late na nga kasi na stress na nga ako and all diba. muka lng madali, but really.. that was so.. STRESSFUL. I need to give so much letters to this and that.. i must ask for this and that.. errr.

the plus side is that I realized that I could not handle too many responsibilities coz im having a hard time fulfilling them.. (now i am thinking if I should consider that as a PLUS side..) huhu. I was thinking of quitting nga ee.. but you know, quitters are losers. i have my pride! naks*! haha.

about the sponsors, haha. too sad nobody had replied. i dont think nga that i could ever find one ee. tulad nga ng sabe sa sticker na nakadikit sa trike.. "BE RELAX, GOD IS IN CHARGE." hahaha. i belive in you God. i know you'll help me.

thank god my week ended up so relaxing.. haha.

my NERDS story.. ^_^

2009-07-11T08:50:00.000-07:00

haha. i dont know but all of a sudden i remember this NERDS-story.

i have this classmate that was so tomboyish and all. all of my blockmates dont like her. she's nice with me because maybe she wants me to be her friend. she had two boxes of nerds. she opened a box.. of course she makes 'alok' coz maybe she wants to be our friend nga. e i love nerds. haha. so maybe half of that box, sa tyan ko lang napunta:) and she noticed it. haha. so she said, "gusto mo syo nalang tong isang box?" haha. she was really friendly. and because i love nerds, i immediately said.. "wow! sure.. thanks!:)" haha. my face was really makapal. me amd her was not yet close pa that time.. well, we're not close until now pla. then she willingly gave me that box of nerds! haha. then later, after a few minutes.. naiirita na kme ksma xa and we dont like to be with her na nga.. (haha. after giving her nerds un pa gagawin ko?! haha.) no second thoughts, we decided to tell her.. ah mali.. to let her feel that we dont like her to be with us.. and after giving her nerds to me and being so friendly, there i am.. bullying her! hahaha. coz she kept insisting herself.. of course, we kept throwing her away! hahaha:)) am i not mean? hahaha. or am i just an evil-patay-gutom?..

oh God, Please let my brightness shine

2009-07-03T06:15:00.000-07:00

okay. so here i am again. Inspired and ready to blog!:)

uhm. okay. so me being the club manager of our org was recently senseless. everbody's busy, except me. tsktsk. how awful. well, my spotlight would be on our sports fest pa ee which would be held this coming september. I'm making myself busy by looking sponsors for our players:).. tss. wish me luck! i hope i could find some.. :)
Sportsfest was the peak of my job. that was the only time for me to shine. I mean, that job was mine. I don't want to have any credits, but at least, I want to take charge of it. but, here's this girl, she was like stealing the spotlight from me. She already ha so much compliments from other people. and now that it's time for me to take part, it's as if she's stealing the scene.

i dont know but, am i not jealous or what? I've been senseless and bored with my work. but am I not working only under her shadow?

oh God. please let my brightness shine. please let other people notice that somehow, there's more to her..

now, i was thinking if im going to post it or not. i dont like her to read this. she might feel flattered after all.

How often do we see our lives in the films we watch?

2009-06-02T16:57:00.000-07:00

(posted first at friendster blogs)

In our philosophy class, my professor said that we often see ourselves in the films we watch. minsan, nakikita naten ung sarili naten sa pinspanood nating movie. nasasabi nten na.. “PARANG AKO YAN HA!:)” “GANYAN AKO..”

Marahil, ganyan rin ako. at madalas pa nga, pinapanood ko lng ang mga movies na nakikita ko ang sarili ko. Muka kcng nagsisilbi itong reflection ng sarili ko. Sinasabi nito ang mga bagay na di ko masabi. Pinapakita ang mga bagay na di ko makita. Pinapadama ang mga bagay na di ko madama.. sa maikling salita, sa pamamagitan ng mga pelikulang ito, napapansin ko ang mga bagay na dati rati ay di ko napapansin.

ba’t ko ba sinasabi to?

akala ko kc dati, isang uri ng abnormality ang nararamdaman ko. akala ko ako lng nakakapansin nun. akala ko ako lng nagiisip ng ganun.. buti na lng nabanggit ng isa kong prof!:) kakatuwa nman:) ^_^

Gusto nyo bng mlman ung mga films na pinapanood ko?

ilan lng to sa mga paborito ko.. Princess diaries, Princess hours, It started with a kiss (1&2), why why love.. at ang latest, BOYS OVER FLOWERS..! :)

hahaha..! oh! alam ko iniisip nyo!:) iniisip nyo cguro na napaka assuming ko.. na feeling ko ako si MIA THERMOPOLIS, JANELLE, JINI, STEPHANIE at JANDI..

oi hindi nman sa ganun:) hahaha.. kc, bukod sa nakikita naten ang sarili nten sa mga pelikulang pinapanood nten, e gusto nating maging katulad ng tao sa pelikula.

pero ung aken, uhmm. BOTH:) minsan, nkikita ko sarili ko, minsan, gusto kong maging katulad nun.. :) hehehe.. at minsan naman, wala lng.. dahil maganda lng ang flow ng story. nakakarelate ako.

’til then,
~cherenbalmores♥

WONDERING PHILOSOPHY

2009-04-14T05:57:00.000-07:00

Philosophy begins in wonder because philosophy itself is something to be wondered about. Don’t you wonder why there are a lot of philosophers in the world? Because there are still plenty of questions unanswered and philosopher’s job is to seek for its answers. Life is full of mystery, and philosophers keep on wondering about those mysteries. When we wonder, we construct ideas, and philosophers need a lot of ideas to come up to their final answer.

CONCEPTS are IDEAS. It is determined by the way we understand things. Our concepts are defined by our experiences. We visualize things base on what we experience, like, knowing that having friends are fun, thus, our concept with friends are fun and happy. But what's more than experience is our BELIEF. Like God's existence. Do we really experience GOD? Realistically speaking, NO. Yet a lot of us had a notion that there is a GOD. And why do you think some acted that they know for sure that there is GOD? It is merely because of their FAITH. They believe in God and they tend to generalize that every good things and awful things happened in their life are made by God, therefore, it is either they would hate or love god.

Our concepts were constructed by our inclined perspective. And it comes to a point that we do not open our mind to take a bite of reality and so we are trap inside the circumference we made around us. That circumference constructed limitations; as a result, our point of view became limited on our horizon. And somehow, because of our inclined perspective, we only choose what we wanted to see and those unseen are what we thought are undesirable. Undesirable things could be so obvious that they do not want to explore, or it could be so mysterious that they just wanted to stay on their comfort zone.

When you miss to take a bite of reality, it is like missing a part in your life. When I was young, I wanted to learn how to bike. I saw kids outside our house biking around the village as if they were so free. Like a bird, I wanted to be free from my cage, my house. One day, my neighbor, who is my classmate as well, invited me to play outside our house. She had her bike with her and I borrowed it. Learning how to bike is really tough. I fall from the bike plenty of times until I got a huge wound on my left knee. My mother scolded me. And I realized that learning how to bike is not as easy as watching kids biking from my room’s window. From then on, I never tried to learn how to bike ever again. It became my comfort zone. That is why right now, I never became like those kids before who could go around the village with their bike.

At first, I thought biking is something that is so trivial. I thought it is as easy as how kids were doing it. But somehow, when I am trying to learn it, it became so mysterious. I try to find the right way to balance my self, I try to bike even just a meter without falling, and I try to figure out a lot of things. A bite of reality is something that is mysterious. Some people do not want to take a bite of reality because they do not want to go away from their comfort zone because they develop FEAR. Little by little, when I took a bite of reality, I develop fear. And that is why I built up an insight that I should not try biking anymore. Fear is one of the factors that limit us from taking bite of reality. And because of that fear, we limit ourselves from taking reality bites.

Plato said that philosophy begins in wonder. In philosophy, it is important to ask plenty of questions. Asking a lot of question requires WONDER, and to wonder is to be disturbed. In this huge world, questions are limitless. There a lot of questions to be asked because world, life, earth, and everything are to be wondered about. Usually, we wonder on the things that are strange. Because of its strangeness, we get disturbed, thus, wonder begins. When we start on wondering, questions raised and philosophy starts. Some try to find answers, some left it unanswered.

When we wonder and ask questions and find some answers, we are unraveling some mysteries we have. But wonder does not only occur in strange things. Sometimes, what is obvious is what had been unnoticed, and what seems to be obvious is mysterious.

In my example, biking is something that is so trivial for me. I wanted to learn how to bike because I find it easy. But when I got to start learning, I realize that biking is something that is strange. That is what usually happened. Sometimes, we thought things are so obvious therefore we underestimate things and feel so confident. In the end, we will then realize how strange it is. Everything in this world is strange if we would only perceive things beyond its surface.

Why do we wonder? We wonder because things are strange. We wonder because we wanted to find some answers. Don’t you wonder why children use to ask plenty of questions? Because for children, most of the things they see are strange. Just like the philosophers, children ask questions because they wonder.

Common sense could be one of the reasons that stop us from wondering. Common sense is developed by our experiences. We base our common sense on our OWN experiences, but we must understand that what seem to be so common to us is not common to everyone. The dilemma comes when we tend to oversimplify our perceptions, and as follows, Bias decisions and doings arises.

In philosophy, there are three concept; wonder, inquiry and insight. Let me apply philosophy in my experience in biking. At first, I only hold on to the questions I have in mind like, what does it feel riding a bicycle? How do they balance their body? Why aren’t they stocked at home? But when opportunity came, I seek for answers. I borrow my friend’s bicycle and tried to bike the bicycle. In the end, I just realized that biking isn’t as easy as it seems. It takes a lot of practice. And by that experience, I had an insight that BIKING IS HARD, and that is why I never learn how to bike.

In general, I wonder why philosophers waste their time seeking for answers in those mysteries where in before, they could live their life without being puzzled by those mysteries. Well, maybe because, just like children, they are curious with such things that they couldn’t have peace of mind without answering those questions. But for me, life is too short to dwell in those puzzles. Like what Marcel said, “Life is not a problem to be solved but a mystery to believe.” Life itself is a mystery, but what is more than our experience is our BELIEF.

BLOGGING OUT OF NOTHING

2009-03-28T14:01:00.000-07:00

its 4:46 am and i dont know why i woke up. Since I cannot go back to sleep, I decided to do my assignment in phil. literatue. It has to be submitted by an email. I was about to make a plot for the novel/collection-of-short-stories CATCH A FALLING STAR by christina hodalgo. I had read it before, but just like the other books of my older sister that I read secretly, i did not finish reading it untill the end. haha. That's how i read books. If I found it interesting all the way, I could finish it. CATCH A FALLING STAR is an interesting collection of short stories, but, I got bored when I am reading it.. and when I stop, I STOP. I mean, most often than not, I wouldn't open it again..:) WEIRD.

Well, since i did not finish reading it, my plot is not COMPLETE:) haha. well, it was just a special assignment that i have to pass to get plus points.. I was afraid I might flunk in this subject. I think philippine literature is a good subject, yet, we do not have a good professor in terms of teaching:).. haha. magulo xa magturo and during his class, only few are listening.. EXCLUDING I:)

I send it to him pa rin eventhough it was incomplete and definitely UNSATSFATORY:) I know i could still have additional points from that:)

BATAAN IMMERSION

2009-03-24T07:26:00.000-07:00

Let me share you some of the pictures taken from our NSTP immersion :)

At HALUSJOS CAVE
(L-R: anne.daphne.cheren.korea)

Both were taken at the PAG-ASA BEACH. Obviously, I was the one holding the camera since "they say" i've the long hands.. ;) errr:)

This one was taken on our room. It was our second night there and korea and anne (who had a different house) leave us and went back to their house by past 1am :)

.•○•.

NSTP immersion is totally about being charitable to people you do not know. It is a three days two nights activity in Ibis, Bagac Bataan. Yes, it was really far far away from our school. It takes couple of hours before we finally get there.

There are tons of rules and regulations we must obey, But for me and for my friends (and maybe for the whole class as well), breaking rules is really the Most fun thing to do :)).

We are not allowed to go to the beach for if any accidents happen, our school is liable for it. But since we l♥ve to break rules, WE WENT TO THE BEEEAAACH! :) hahaha. we went to the beach WITHOUT minding what our professor might say (though we know the fact that they would be totally CRACKED if they knew what we are doing :)). Even worst for our professor, and better for us, We sail on a BOAT! :) it was really exciting. The breeze of the see almost freeze our toe nails. What made it more exciting is that we saw two SWORDFISH at the middle of the SEA:) We are not exactly sure if those fish we saw was SWORDFISH... but they really look like a swordfish. Due to our amazement, We did not capture them.. not even a single shot. Too bad I could not post their pictures here.. The water is very clear.. take a look at this image..

We really enjoy our immersion :) hahaha. We enjoy the BEACH, The SWORDFISH, The CLEAREST WATER EVER and the HALUSJOS CAVE :) we really have so much fun!:)

I may forgive, but I definitely won't FORGET.

2009-03-22T19:38:00.000-07:00

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

I am a person who bears a lot of angst inside. I may forgive, but I definitely WON'T forget the way they made me feel. Sometimes, I live with it FOREVER.. and it has a negative impact on me.

There are a lot of people who unknowingly hurts my feelings. And when they get to know it, they'll say.. "sorry.. I don't mean to.. I don't know..". yes, they were always like that and it is really so annoying. I am a sensitive person, but i tried not to react when something get wrong, because what I saw as wrong, for them it was all right. Sometimes, they saw me as"mababaw", but do the really know how they hurt me? they would say "I did not mention any name.. I am not referring to anybody else.. I dont know what i did wrong.." heck. im so sick with those kind of reasoning. its getting perosonal and they expect me not to react.

Sometimes, I really hate the word SORRY for people get used to their wrong doings and say sorry at the end when everything fall apart. But really, they don't mean it... they don't mean that they're sorry. And forgiveness made them fearless to repeat those wrong doings.

Actually, i really don't want to forgive them since the fire of anger inside my heart keeps burning me everytime i remember what they did. But i still forgive.. I still forgive but I wont ever forget the fact that you hurt me.

CLUB MANAGER :)

2009-03-21T18:27:00.000-07:00

Daphne and I filled-up an application form for the officers of HRM society. I don't know, but there is this feeling that i must grab the opportunity to be actively part of HRM society. After a week, my clasmates and some friends from the other block knew that i am running.. so on daphne. It is as if it was a BIG DEAL. I mean, I feel that they don't trust my capabilities. They were like "o, di nga? tatakbo ka?".. and somehow, i get offended :(

Then, the election came. Out of nervous, I did not make it to have a good speech. And there is an issue about my answer in my application form.

1. How would you describe yourself as a leader?

-A model of imperfection that amazingly obtain positive remarks for a job well done. I don’t need people. I need compassion from the people.

They asked me what do I mean when I say "i dont need people, i need compassion from the people." I did not answer them perfectly because my nervousness overecome me. Then mrs. ramos asked a concluding question. "if i'm not mistaken, compassion means pity. do you really mean that you need pity from people?" OMG. "does compassion really mean pity?" I asked my self. And I said, " uhmm. yes. somehow." in a sarcastic tone. Chef christine said "bka nman understanding ibig nyang sabihin" ... yah, chef christine is right. that is what I really mean that i did not said when mrs ramos were asking me for explanation. whew! i was like a draining water. I really hate it when people noticed my wrong grammar [though in my blog, I've got plenty:).]

Well, in the end, I was elected as CLUB MANAGER where I would be so busy during intramurals. I am in charge of the registration of the players, pep practices maybe, org shirts.. and a lot more. though ms. admana nominated me, I dont see her believe in my capabilities. And my aim for the next school year is to IMPRESS ms. admana. I must prove her wrong that I am not as responsible as she expected. Well actually, there are 13 positions for the officers, but there are only 12 applicants, so everyone will have a position. hahaha. Am i not too lucky?

I am not yet close with my co-officers, and I am looking forward to be friends with them. I hope everything will go the way we like and plan. I hope, Next school year would be a year of SUCESS:). As i know, we have a team building seminar this april or may, and it would be a great bonding moment with my co-officers. HRM GO FIGHT!

Good work!

2009-01-14T20:01:00.000-08:00

We had a Buffet party for our final exam in my meal management class last semester. Our group was the party organizer. We are in-charge with the design of the room, invitation, menu, feedback form and a lot more. I did the invitation. Though there are some typo errors, Ms. Bobadilla, my proffessor, liked it very much.

She wants me to make a personalized invitation for her daughter. It means that she really appreciate my effort and my work. I really feel flattered because somebody appreciated my work.

She is also consulting to us.. [to me and to my friend daphne] she asks our opinions and suggestions and she honors it. Actually, she invited us to her daughter's birthday party but unfortunately, we have a class on that day. She also wanted us to design the party of her daughter.

Isn't it amazing that there is someone who really appreciates you and believes in you?

REGRETS..

2009-01-12T18:53:00.000-08:00

Until now, I regret that I rejected him..

He who shows how important am I in this world.
He who acknowledge my efforts.
He who always makes me laugh.. and smile.
He who says I'm beautiful no matter what.
He who makes an effort to catch my attention.
He who sings a song for me.

He who LOVES me...

a LIER inside of me.

2009-01-12T18:02:00.000-08:00

If I tell a lie, is it me to blame?

Sometimes, because of the discriminations I faced, I probably utter a lie. If I would tell the truth, they wouldn't understand me. They might discriminate me again just like before.. and it sucks.

There are thing that was too good to be true, yet what can I do if it was all God's blessings? They don't believe me for being so PATHETIC? I'm not being pathetic.

If they don't want to believe me, fine. It was not my lost though.

It is hard for me to tell the truth for the reason that in the end, I will always be a LOSER in their eyes. They keep on judging me first and discrimination follows. They thought they know me. They thought they understand me. They thought they were RIGHT. They never even heard my explanations.

THEY DESERVE TO KNOW THINGS THAT WAS BEYOND REALITY.

There is this EVIL side of me who only wants to revenge..
As long as I know whats TRUE and what's NOT, I'd always have peace of mind.

they influenced me BADLY :[

2009-01-12T01:24:00.000-08:00

I am living in a Close-to-Reality world before I met them. In a world where I don't have to pretend. In a world where being PRACTICAL is an edge. In a world where I am not belittled. In a world that works perfectly for me.

But when they cross on my way, suddenly, they brought me to another world. In a world where almost everything opposed to my Close-to-Reality world. In that diverse world, I could hardly distinguish what's real and what's not. I thought that world is what "they" so-called REALITY.

I am living a simple life before. Simple lifestyle, simple family, simple friends, simple aspirations, simple problems and all. I am contented for simple things. I agree that life doesn't have to be simple because life itself isn't simple at all. But, does life had to be complicated? If you are happy, fulfilled and satisfied in that SIMPLE LIFE, would you ask for more?

They are the person who love spending money for food.. food.. and more food! And because I am with them.. I get influenced.. until such time came that the parental had to cut my allowance for being wastrel and for some financial matters.One day, I told myself I should stop spending too much for my wants.. I should give way to my needs and to some more necessary things. But they do not give me an opportunity to stand for my simple goal. I insisted that I'm not going with them to have food trip session because I have to do my goal.. but they do not listen. they urged me to break my goals. and it happens over and over again Until I set aside my goal.

That is not part of my simple life. They changed me. but still they don't understand me.

2008-09-12T10:01:00.000-07:00

*sigh* its 1:10am and I still cannot sleep. there are many things that bothers me so much. schoolworks made it above those. but anyways, i still love schooling:) haha. why? 'coz my crushes are at school! haha. [now I'm alive again:)]

you know why girls love to watch basketball games? because its the easiest way to know their crush's last name:) and also, its the coolest way to make"papansin" to your crush:) cheering him during the game is a fun thing to do!:) haha. believe me dude:)

i'm a Lollipop :)

2008-09-09T04:12:00.000-07:00

WHICHCANDYAREYOU?

Lollipop. You're a kid at heart -- playful, optimistic, charming, and cheery! Everyone loves to spoil you, and you have to admit, you love all the attention, too! People like you `cause: You always see the best in everything and everyone, and you always have something nice to say.

credits to candymag.com :)

Hello, Im here! :)

2008-09-08T06:16:00.000-07:00

I used to check my blog if someone had input some comments about my blogs. I've been doing this for about two weeks. And guess what bugged me off. though it's been two weeks ago, no one ever tried to put some comment/s on my blog. huhu..:'(

Why am I expecting such things?

last last week, while I am browsing the net, I found this website: www.vixenart.net. It's pretty cool. I actually love that site and I bookmarked it. I want my blogs be as popular as her. I wanted to have a website that functions the same way as her. I'm not a copycat. I just get inspired with her[sabrina]. She's a very good designer. I wanted to be like her. but I also have my own style. like what I said before, I'm not a copycat. :)

I wanna be FAMOUS. I hope someone might notice me.. me as me:) my creations, my blogs..

oh SUNDAY : )

2008-09-07T00:58:00.000-07:00

Today is Sunday, and for me, SUNDAY is a HOLIDAY.
Sunday is the only sure day that I don't have any appointments for school and for any other things.
It's time for me to chill-out and relax.
Time to set aside frustrations, school works, worries, anxieties, problems and the likes.

Usually, I spend my weekend here at home. as much as possible, I don't wanna spend some money. I have lots of important things to buy and to spend my money with. I'm at home though our house doesn't have a relaxing ambiance. I mean, I never feel relaxed here at home. haha. maybe because of my siblings who always shout.. I mean, talk so loud. amp. but still, there's no place like home. I'm safe here that's why I love to be at home:)

Sunday is the Lord's day. Though I definitely know it, I seldom go to mass. [hehe] ahm. because its SUNDAY. and Sunday for me is a time to relax. I dont wanna deal with any appointments. but hey, I'm not mean though. I used to pray. I always have my rosary with my wallet. I attend mass on our school. [and our school held mass almost more than four time a month. so I think its enough :) hehe]

teryakiboy craziness

2008-09-05T11:02:00.000-07:00

|TERIYAKIBOY|

this restaurant have been so memorable to me.
this is where I celebrated my first birthday with my lubby-dubby friends; C'est la vie:)

August 20, 2008 is the special day.
We had our lunch there.
Daphne and anne went out of the resto, I thought they would just buy flip flops 'coz they're shoes got wet due to SUPERB RAIN which I call "SUPERB BLESSING".

Later, korea went to the bathroom. I left with jean on the table. minutes, almost an hour, passed by. I got bored.
wanna see the effect of my booooredom?

here they are!

later, they came back and we started eating our lunch.
haha. atlas! don't they know I'm starving already. amp.
after eating, I took some snaps of pictures.
I got no any idea why they act so differently...
[laughing without me knowing what is it all about, hiding like they are expecting something, and they don't wanna let me took a shot of them. amp.
later. later. and later more. [haha]
the waiters of teriyaki boy came up to our table having a came with them...
[huhu. I was so touched! :') I got no idea about this. I've beeen so SLOW. amp.]
they sang a song for me.

"happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! happy birthday happy birthday, Happy birthday to you!:)"

OMG. now I know what makes my birthday special.

Celebrating it with my lubby-dubby friends.
Celebrating it with my mom 'coz we have the same birthday:)
got so much birthday comments on friendster.
receive plenty of birthday text messages.
knowing that people remebers me still.
and lastly, having a SURPRISE is the best!
[I actually love surprises. just don't let me know there's gonna be a surprise 'coz I hate it. :)]

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Life is bland without PASSION

2008-09-03T23:40:00.000-07:00

Until now, I still don't know what I wanted to be when I grow up though I know that I already grown up. I am now at my second year in college and taking up BS-HRM.and do you think I wanted to be a chef, manager, receptionist and whatsoever job related with HRM? hmp. I dont think so.

I just took up this couse because of te greater profit that i will earn after having nice job that I will gain in my course.

I'm into DESIGNING. I love arts when it comes with designing. colorful and vivid ideas are can be express on it. I wanted to be an Interior designer, a Web designer, an artist and even a psychologists. haha. I never run-out of ambitions. But because of having too many of it, I'm having a hard time to choose.

Now, what problems do you think am I facing regarding with my current course?

I don't think i've been a very responsible person for choosing me as a leader of our laboratory class. [what? me, a nobody, leader of HRM lab class??] actually its not a big deal. but I used to wonder why did I accept those obligations knowing the fact that I was a NOBODY when it comes in cooking. at first, it was kinda easy. but as time goes by, our experiments are uncommon. it is totally an ALIEN for us.. specially for me.

I am starting to commit lots of mistakes that makes my group members mad at me. they are asking me why did I chose this course if I dont know how to cook!? [HRM is different from CULINARY. its not totally a cooking class!amp:]

by then, I realize what would happen in doing things without PASSION. life is bland. super. right now, im trying to love it. i'm trying to put passion on it. HRM is a fun course. its not hard to love:)

my Online diary :)

2008-08-31T00:23:00.000-07:00

The role of blog for me is like having an online diary. I use to have several diaries before. But someone used to read my diaries and react so badly about what's in there. I can't barely understand her. I don't know why does she react that way. She never thought that I might caught her reading my diaries because of her unusual reaction. Every time I caught HER reading my diaries, It keeps me gnashing my teeth and I begin to throw that diary and make a new one. And there I go again. making extra superb efforts to keep and hide my diary away from HER. then after a couple of months, there she is again, reading my diaries! heck!

my seventeenth :)

2008-08-18T23:03:00.000-07:00

Would tomorrow be a not-so ordinary day?

I'll be on my seventeenth year by tomorrow.

Birthdays are special.
But until now, I still don't know what makes my birthday special.

Aside from having a new age, what else made birthdays different?

a stressful day

2008-08-11T21:35:00.000-07:00

Yesterday is such a super terrific and frustrating day.
there's no way to rest.
got so much busy with our laboratory class.

We need to shop for the ingredients of five recipes that we are going to prepare at the afternoon. shopping for ingredients was the most tiring thing of all.
and worst.. though we feel so tired,
we still need to move and prepare the meal.
Even worst..
there are some ingredients that we forgot to buy.
guess what we did??

wearing our chef's uniform, clog shoes, apron and hand towel, we go straight to the store to buy those things that we forgot. yet not all of it can be found there that's why we rode on a tricycle and went to the other store.
Imagine how we looks-like during that time.

hooo..
I can't breathe!:)

we should be prepared for our next laboratory class.
we really, really, REALLY don't like to happen it again.

there's always a good thing after the bad ones:)

2008-07-23T04:18:00.000-07:00

Oh my god.

My day doesn't starts good. Everything was gray for me.
My friend pissed me off when everything is on the way to bloom.
Why does she do those things to me? She never consider my feelings when she laugh at me.
I don't know what am i going to act when I got "pikon" at her. vengeance is the only thing I can do to make myself satisfied yet I can't. I can't revenge with her. got no bullets to shoot.

We have an exam today and it requires a calculator. O-M-G!
I thought I forgot mine. I was so frustrated. I dont know what to do.
minutes before the exam would start, I dump my hands on my bag to get my pen.
I feel in my hands the cover of my calculator.

OMG!
"its a miracle!" i thought.
I never expect it.

I realize that there's always a good thing after the bad ones.
thank god everything got so fine FINE fine:)

My thoughts about oral communication as a tool in building relationships

2008-07-02T06:13:00.000-07:00

My thoughts about oral communication

as a tool in building relationship

In this human race, life became a worthy of note because of oral communication. I circumscribe oral communication as the spoken words interacted between two or more people. In oral communication, what you say is equally important as how you deliver it. Gestures and voice are significant in communicating verbally. We can make or break a relationship in bringing it into play. We make use of oral communication in our daily life. We build and destroy relationships. Some use it as a tool for their success; while some use it to allot gossips. But generally, Oral communication makes our life easier.

We build relationships by means of oral communication. But somehow, Oral communication does not always develop a healthy relationship. In communicating verbally, we should think before we conduct ourselves because we cannot alter the things that we have articulated. Remember, the words said verbally hurt more than the written words.

We constantly avail ourselves of oral communication in our daily life. As a student, we employ oral communication in chewing the fat with our friends, in doing a report, in joining contests like declamation, oration and the likes, in asking and delivering information, etc. We get to know each other well in communicating verbally. We can distinguish if the person we talked to is two-faced or law-abiding unlike in dealing non-verbally, we can composed sweet messages without knowing the real emotion behind that.

Life is gray without oral communication. Catch a glimpse of how you meet your friends and loved ones, how you learn things at school, how you express your feelings and all that. Without oral communication, I can’t imagine how brilliant our life would be.

one of those worthless blog in the world:)

2008-07-02T06:00:00.000-07:00

blog blog blog.
this blog is worthless;)
i'm bored that's why I have this one;)

Im done with my assignments and all that:)
yey! there's nothing that makes me worry so far;)
i hope i'll be like this always and forever:)

All I want is to have FUN FUN FUN:)
and blogging is a FUN thing to do:)

I wonder who are the ones who read my blogs?
maybe its only me who read it.
because my blogs are worthless that's why no one got interested with it:)

ok.
i'll end it.
the last period is coming because I'm already STARVING:)
food food food and more foooodd:)
I'm coming! yey:)

ok. here's th end.

C'est la vie

2008-07-02T05:39:00.000-07:00

I'm currently happy and contented with my friends now. I love them and they love me back:). A picture of perfect friendship;). more bonding moments, laugh trips, FOOD TRIPS, joke time and picture moments:). I can't spell F-U-N without them. the FRIENDS I'm talking about are my friends in college. They are my companion in my college years. We're comfortable for each other. I love C'est la vie. that's our friendship name:) it consists of Daphne, Korea, Anne, Jean and ME:). We usualy have our own world. Some people might not understand us but we don't care anyway. As long as we are happy and there's no one we hurt, we act the way we're comfortable:)

I'm extremely BBUUSSYY..

2008-06-30T07:26:00.000-07:00

OMG. ngaun ko lang talaga nafe-feel na college nko! I'm extremely busy this time. but see, i can still input a blog:) hehe. may modular ako bukas sa religion, at kelangan ko pang tapusin ung background ng airport na dinodrawing ko for our report tomorrow. hay nako. di ko alam kung anu uunahin. 11pm na:) makakatulog pa kya ako? hayy..

madame pa kong gustong sabihin at isulat.. kaso busy tlga ako ee.

naisipan ko lng ayusin itong blogspot ko na to:) haha.. hindi pa to tapos. I still need to furnish it. maybe next time na lng pag hindi nko busy:) hehe. kelan kya un? tsk tsk.

what's your names hidden meaning?

2008-05-07T06:50:00.000-07:00

MY NAME'S MEANING

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

click here if you want to know your name's hidden meaning.

have a great time‼

its all about ME.

2008-04-29T19:07:00.000-07:00

ME
`get to know me..

a girl with long black hair, five feet and six inches tall, size nine feet, and a left-handed person--cheren.
Sometimes, it seems so easy to describe a person. It is always the physical appearance that we first notice. but describing my self was a tough thing to do, perhaps i don't know my self. i take time to know my self. and little-by-little, i recognized my identity. i like it when people are telling me my good and bad sides. it helps a lot in my knowing-myself process.
I am Cheren Cordero Balmores. I am a happy person. but it doesn't mean that when i'm happy i have no problems. I also have problems and insecurities. I tell my problems to my friends because they help a lot. otherwise, i don't tell my insecurities to anyone. It's only between me and my soul. I'm a fake burly, I'm fragile inside. i pretend i'm strong and fine so i won't make much explanations. at times, people never notice that i feel upset or offended by them. Because i always smile and laugh even though things really hurts. [yeah. crazy i know.]When i'm alone, i cry. i cry because i think of the things that made me hurt. i get hurt easily but it doesn't show. it's a hard thing to keep all your anger in your heart and but i needed to do it for everyone's sake. Maybe that's one of the reason I call my self a "Great Pretender". many thought they know me. Even me. I thought that i knew my self... Until when times get tough and I ask my self questions that I cannot answer. I hide my true emotions for I know that nobody could understand. anyhow, if there would, i'm sure they wouldn't mind it anyway. Many people doesn't care at me. I can count with my fingers those who shows lots of care for me. I feel bad when i can't get back the nice attitudes that I gave to the people around me. That is why I hate my self most of the times. Specially when people are underestimating me. They break my nerves. i really hate to be underestimated. I feel so small. sometimes, I get frustrated. I dont know how to give up my best. even though i wanted to prove them wrong, i still can't because i thought that maybe i am really as small as what they think. I'm a juvenile person--innocent, silly, weird, vivid yet SIGNIFICANT. You may be wont like me for being so immature. I cant please every person to like me. but as long as i am happy in what i am doing, i feel free to do it again and again. I only have one life to live, why not live it to the fullest ^_^. I love playing and playing and playing. Just like how those kids love it. it is full of fun and laughters. But just like those kids, I also repeatedly commit mistakes. I regret some of it, but some taught me lessons that i wouldn't learn without committing that fault. I give my life more meaning yet living it more simple than what it really is. I'm not afraid to die--it's a logic.

I am a simple human being who only wanted to be loved and appreciated. I am just like those pets who needs "tender loving care".

to be continued...