Should I walk away?

things are really changing. In this crazy world, nothing is constant.. except changes. Friends come and go. there are billion people in the world.. and finding a real friend isn't easy. For some, they're friendly in nature so they easily found friends. well, im not one of those.

I hate my friends. I cry because of them. I tend to be this emotional every time I think of them nowadays. Tell me it's unfair to hate them and not hate the people who do the same, I don't care. In fact, they are incomparable. They WERE my CLOSE friends, and the rest are not.. Is it wrong for me to expect something good from them? is it only me who thinks this way? Im paranoid. I hate them so much.. I hate them when they're laughing at my simple mistakes.. I hate them when they're commenting on how I look.. I hate them when they're trying to make me look funny when there's plenty of people.. I hate them when they say that it's only me who thinks this way.. I hate them when in everything I do, they criticize me.. I hate them when they're trying to spoil my happiness with my other friends.. I hate them when they are nice to me when they needed me.. I hate them when they're not being a good friend to me.. I HATE THEM a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!

I am thinking to go away from them.. I am thinking if I should end our friendship. we're friends for almost 2 years and it's not easy to decide.