REPOST.. :D

This is a blog repost from my tumblr account. I just realized that it's not so good to blog at tumblr..

2009.08.07

See, like what I’ve said before, EVERYTHING WILL FALL INTO PLACE. From being an uncertain little girl who almost give up the challenge, to being an enduring grown-up lady who works well to get appreciation.. YES. to be appreciated is the top reason why I work well. I want someone to be proud of me or be satisfied with my work. I am not a good person. I mean, I am absent-minded most of the time, I am not decisive enough, I am fearful, I am not perfect and I have lots of flaws. But the thing is, I am trying to, somehow, make an effort to earn good compliments.

I don’t need to be what the other people wants me to be. I have my own mind, I will be what I wanted to be. I’m sorry but I don’t know how to make “takot” the people I’m handling. They said I must do that in order for them to follow me. I know I am not good in handling people. some follows me, some are not. But whatever may happen, I’m trying to be nice to all of them since I believe that a pure heart and a peaceful mind makes better performance.

Expect that dilemmas may occur.. but like what I have said earlier, everything will fall into place. Don’t loose hope because the best things will come as a surprise. Expect the unexpected as what they say.

Now I’m happy. I’m happy because I ignore what my friends said and stood up with what I think is right. I don’t need to frightened them to gain respect. I WANTED TO BE RESPECTED AS WHO I AM. The plus side is that I’m gaining new friends. And I’m pretty sure they’d like me as who I am not as what I pretended to be. Soft and gentle hands are much better than those made of metals.

Anong magic meron ka ba't parati mo kong napapangiti?

Akala ko wala na. Akala ko naka get-over nako. Kasi hindi na kita naiisip eh. Kasi hindi na kita nakikita.

Pero bakit isang tawag mo lang sa pangalan ko napapangiti na ako? ung ngiting 10-15 seconds bago matangal. Ung ngiting kahit pigilan mo, lumalabas at lumalabas pa rin. tawag pa lang un sa pangalan ko ha. Pano pa nung kinausap mo ko? parang ang sarap ihinto nung oras eh. Ung gusto mong tumagal rin ang moment na un. Pero syempre, ayun, na speechless lang ako.

Ba't ka ba kasi ganyan? ang bait bait mo maxado. ang hirap mong kamuhian. ang hirap mong hindi isipin. ang hirap mong isnobin. ang hirap mong kalimutan...

Bakit ganyan ka thesis?

Shemay. bat ba kelangan pa naming maghanap ng problema para lang sa thesis na yan? kung iisipin, kung problema lang ang hahanapin, muka syang madali.. pero hindi lang un eh. Syempre malamang sa thesis kelangan naten ng topic diba? hayy. lechugas na topic yan. topic lang yan pero halos na tuyot ang utak namen kakaisip. isip dito isip dyan. lahat ng paraan para makaisip ng topic ginawa na namen. naglakad lakad, nagtanong tanong.. only to end up na mangagaling sa prof namen ung topic :D yey. at least bawas problema na un diba? :D

Chaka me isa pa kong problema. [tss. maniwala kang isa lang yan. problemado nga ko parati diba?] Ang bilis magtrabaho nung thesis partner ko.. hindi naman sa slow ako no. pero.. ang hirap sabayan. basta. haha. pero okay naman. un nga lang, hindi ko na alam kung ano pa ang maidadagdag ko minsan dahil mukang halos lahat nasabi na nya. haha. anyway, okay naman sya kapartner.. un nga lang, me mga mangilan-ngilang bagay kaming di napagkakasunduan. pero natural na un samen. hayy. o diba. "hayy" nanaman. puro nalang ba buntong hininga? haha.

basta sana, ang hiling ko e maka 12 balls kame. kahit papaano, nagugustuhan ko rin namang magbasa ng mga articles kasi mukang interesting ung iba eh. edi aun, me natututunan pa ako diba. tapos kahit papaano, nagagamit ko ung oras ko. i mean hindi ito nasasayang kakapanood lng ng tv o kaka babad lang sa facebook. haha :D

AH! alam ko na. kokompletuhin ko ang simbang gabi tapos hihiling ako. diba sabi nila pag nakumpleto mo raw ang simbang gabi, matutupad ang kahilingan mo? tama. tama. haha. me pag-asa pa kame! :P simbang gabi, here I come! haha.

My new pledge: Thou shall not buy unecessary things.

This past few months, I always have financial problems. And the root of those problems are my unecessary expenses. hm. kadalasan naman ng mga binibili ko e pagkain. Pero sobra na ee. I mean, I eat a lot. I spend a lot. nauubos na pera ko kakagastos sa walang katuturan na bagay. now, my conscience is hunting me.
To cut this foolishness, I will make a pledge that I will not spent any single cent for unnecessary things. Meaning, if i dont really need that thing, I must not buy it. I must neither think twice. I have to save my money. Christmas is coming and I must prepare a gift for my friends and family.
Sana magawa ko tong pledge na to. kung hindi, nako.. wala nakong future! haha.

Galit ako.

Badtrip! inis na inis na talaga ako sa buhay ko! ang boring. parang walang saysay. baka bukas, sa kangkungan nalang ako pupulutin. nakakainis pa itong st paul. Oo, ung ST PAUL. kasi yan ung dahilan ng init ng ulo ko ngaun! akalain mo, pumasok ako sa school para sa nag iisang class ko na 730-1030.. tas pagdating ko dun, wala palang prof!! badtrip!! sayang effort! sayang pamasahe!! sayang uniform!!! sayang ung tulog ko!!!! as usual, nag blog lang nanaman ako dahil galit at inis ako!! hay. nakakaasar naman kasi talaga eh. buti sana kung malapit lng ung school samen. tas ang panget panget pa ng sched namen!! badtrip! hay. naiinis talaga ako!!!!!!